August 29, 2011
The Breast Blog #15
I HAVE GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!
I called the doctor’s office on Friday and they still didn’t have the Pathology report. I called again today and someone called back. My heart was in my throat until I heard the words, “We have good news for you.” (They must love saying those words.) Apparently the “margins are clear” on the right, which I believe means there are no cancer cells left following the lumpectomy. And on the left breast, the nodule was diagnosed as a papilloma, a benign condition.
I cannot express the relief I feel. After that call, I felt immediately so much lighter. I had thought I was, by and large, doing okay with everything. I really thought I was handling things. But when I compare how I felt this afternoon to how I’ve been feeling the last three months, I can tell you, it is clear now I was carrying a huge weight for these last few months.
I gave the news to a few of the more significant people in my life. The first several times, I spoke the words, I cried. I cried more sharing this good news than I did sharing the scary news! Tears of relief and joy.
How do I adequately express my joy and gratitude???? Picture me doing a HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DANCE! Picture me giving each of you who has prayed for me, sent me love, sent me Reiki, or given me any kind of healing session or comfort or food or money or any kind of kindness, being hugged with the most heartfelt of hugs.
You all have been my gift. There have been many gifts, actually, but feeling your kindness and love, and getting back in communication with friends I haven’t seen or talked to in a long time, has been an enormous blessing.
I only received that short summary from one of the office people. I don’t really know a lot of details. I’m really curious to read the actual report. To be honest, I’m kind of curious if the papilloma/nodule shrunk a bit from when it was first discovered. So many prayers were sent on my behalf that I can’t help thinking SOMETHING changed as a result.
Well, I certainly have changed. I know that I will be a significantly healthier person as a result of this. I have already changed my diet in a good direction. I have learned a lot – on both a medical and metaphysical level. I have certainly processed a lot of emotions. I hope to never take life for granted again, but I know that it’s hard to retain this level of euphoria and commitment over the long haul. Let me just say I pray I will be very conscious of my choices from now on. Life is indeed sacred.
I have a follow-up appointment with the surgeon on Thursday. I’m sure I will learn more and have more to report after that.
Meanwhile, all I can say is THANK YOU. Thank you, thank you, thank you. And thank You, thank You, thank You, Mother/Father God.
Blessed be, one and all.
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